i've abandoned this page quite abit. haha. well, i've reached the point in the semester where all the projects and presentations are gonna be due. which means the semester is coming to an end(: nothing exciting really. oh, there is. CN BLUE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE ON 13 APRIL AND I AM GOING FOR THEIR CONCERT! spent a bomb on it, but i guess it'll be worth it because i don't know when they are going to come to singapore again and i really really like all their songs. that's like the most exciting thing in my life now. i'm just looking forward to my summer break, my long long break that'll make me not wanna go back to school:D
can't believe i'm gonna be done with my first year in uni so soon. it's good, means that the next 3 years will pass by quickly and i can be out of school forever(:
sometimes i really wonder why am i so lazy. i don't like doing work, i don't like involving myself with things that don't interest me much (which adds up to a lot), i'm happy just doing nothing and lazing at home. so, i have a problem. and this problem has been with me since forever. i wonder whether i'll even make it to work next time. i think i always look for the easy way round everything. i'll do everything to spend the shortest amount of time to get my work done. you can call it efficient, but sometimes it turns out to be mediocre. not a good thing. but i can't push myself beyond that. well, if you can't change it, you'll have to work around it.
i'm so interested to know what my life will be like 5 years from now. what would working life be like? what about my friends? if only i could have a glimpse of my future, haha. i'm sure everyone wants that. but it seems sad that my supposed prime of life (now) is spent on doing things i don't like.
you know as kids, we always imagine our future to be happy and fairytale like, at least for me. like how you'll be wealthy, have a nice house, a nice family, good job and happy everything. it's rare to imagine a pessimistic future. i guess in every human being, we all hold on to hope. without hope, it's hard to live  a life. so what's my point? hoping in the things of this world will get you no where because they'll disappoint and fade away eventually. but hope in Christ is different. because He won't disappoint and we are assured that He'll be back again. with that hope in mind, i guess it makes life a little easier to get by.
till then,

J.