a time for reflections once again. i've come to almost the end of my first sem in uni. well, no more lessons, just waiting for exams. it's exciting and irritating at the same time. i mean most people have finished their exams and are holiday-ing alr. but all the uni people are slogging now. i guess life's fair in some sense. we get to slack from may-aug. haha.
enough said about school, that's always not my main point. finally finished with the composition of the yz camp theme song. my first time doing an official composition. i hope it's catchy enough for everyone. i think it's catchy and my sis thinks so too. but maybe non-music people will have more difficulties? cos there's much syncopation. haha. i guess my experience with writing the song is kinda mixed feelings. i mean i enjoyed it very much but there's quite a bit of pressure to make sure it's not too cheena-sounding, not too dead, not too boring...and the list goes on. yeah, and i know by my own strength/wisdom/musicality i probably won't be able to compose. but thank God for His wisdom, the Creator of music, to give me inspiration for tunes and words for the lyrics(: well, i've given it my best shot. hope it'll be fine.
church activities aside, i really miss my high school friends. my CCA friends. classmates. i mean 6 years in the CCA really bonds people together. and our batch has gone through ups and downs together and we are an awesome ball of fun! haha, as i say so. i miss string ensemble. not the practices, but the people. i don't think there'll be any other CCA as awesome as that because in uni, the CCAs just function so differently, i don't think there's a sense of belonging. and for those that have a strong sense of belonging, i don't think i can ever fit with people from that crowd. i just like a quiet life i guess. i feel very intimidated by people who are overly social or in situations where i've to face a whole sea of less familiar people. i'll really close up. like to me, there's literally this glass panel that separates me from other people. this is probably signs of a true blue introvert.
back to missing my friends, i sincerely think that my friends from high school are the ones who will last. there's something about the uni system that doesn't allow strong steadfast friendship because of the ever changing timetables and classes. maybe i'll change my perception after a few more semesters.
till then,

J.